Stirring

12-16-19

Have you ever felt so agitated inside that you had to get it all out?  I was like that last week and went to my studio and painted.  What came out of it was good for me - six paintings.  I was a painting fiend!  It felt so good but at the same time, it was an anxious place for where I was and where I had to go mentally, was an uncomfortable place. 
I'm pleased as to what was produced but it was not easy painting.  In fact, I was exhausted afterwards. It was very physical.  I do want to paint more of these.  It's not that they were 'fun' to paint, they were needed for me to paint and felt very unrestrained and honest.  I was happy with the results.  I just now, want to go very big with them.  They were painted on Rives BFK printmaking paper (acrylic), 30"x22", which is a good size but I can see them going to four-six feet in size. 
It was a challenge and really, I wasn't sure of what exactly I was doing.  I just painted what I was feeling I needed to paint.  I just remember having in the pit of my stomach, an agitated, anxious feeling and I think it was portrayed in the work.  One friend said the work was, "disturbingly beautiful".  I'll take it!  There does exist a beauty within them but at the same time, something exists that is unsettling.  It really reflects some personal and public feelings I have.  Being bipolar, my work changes due to my mood and if that is coupled by feelings of uneasiness with our world today, then that will come out in the work.  And I believe, it did. 
I'm still working through exactly what these are saying so I'm calling them, my Stirring Series.  Something is stirring within them.  Seems fitting at the moment.  It could change but until then, this suffices.  So I'll make more of these.  I'm excited for the possibilities.  I'm hoping that people see them and are drawn to them, willing to take time to explore what is presented and how they feel and react to them as well.  We shall see.  I'll just continue to paint. That's what I can do as an artist.  Really, that's what I'm supposed to do!
So, until next time...  enjoy, create, and be blessed!


             

                    Susan M Gibbons               Susan M Gibbons                Susan M Gibbons
                          Stirring I                             Stirring II                            Stirring III
                 Acrylic on Rives BFK        Acrylic on Rives BFK          Acrylic on Rive BFK


           

                   Susan M Gibbons                Susan M Gibbons                 Susan M Gibbons
                       Stirring IV                              Stirring V                           Stirring VI
                Acrylic on Rives BFK        Acrylic on Rives BFK            Acrylic on Rives BFK

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