Saying Goobye

2-26-19

Saying Goodbye


In the solitude I sit
waiting for the stillness
to subside

Pensive and hurried 
thoughts fill my
head

Your presence
no longer here
but in another place

Sorrow for what
wasn't and
for what was

Making it hard
to release
and say goodbye

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